I believe a lot of what creates our reality is where we focus our energy. If we focus our energy on fear based paradigms that is what we receive. If we shift it to faith based paradigms we receive positive outcomes within our reality.
Focusing my energy towards healing and creating expressive paintings and crystal headwear gave me an outlet understanding my reality. Sometimes reality is such a strange concept to me that I’m still not sure that quantum mechanics can even explain what it really means. Learning from leading a fear based existence for a long period of time taught me many things about manifesting reality and energy frequency.
One of my favourite lyrics from the Band Muse, Knights of Cydonia. “Don’t waste your time or time will waste you”. So many times I was seeking purpose and direction when it was staring at me in the face. I’d turn to creating for fun. But didn’t realise the positive impact it was having towards my spiritual, mental and emotional growth. Painting abstract expressionistic pieces allowed me the time and space I needed to let my conscious mind flow to places while having an outlet of expression. Playing with bright and vibrant colours and crystals helped bring about quick and steady healing.
I’ve realised the more I focus on creating and expressing myself. Whether it’s through a painting, writing, making jewellery, conversation. The more healthy I feel within my heart, body, soul and mind.
A lot of the time I felt like I gave my energy away too freely. Making me feel empty and crazy. When I began to understand the concept that everything is vibrating at a certain energy signature, everything from colours, music, emotions, crystals, humans. We all have our own unique energy signature, then what we chose to mix into our energetic field effects us mentally, physically and emotionally. I can gauge this off my emotional reaction from watching too much news. My emotions usually begin to plummet after hearing all the wrong doings in the world. Or the joy I feel when my favourite song comes on the radio.
The more I focus on and allow the entertainment I experience to be enjoyable, educational and inspiring the greater an impact it has on my overall well-being. Along with all other areas of my life. When I’m aware of the energy I’m putting into something then I’m also aware of the energy I’m receiving.
I experienced one toxic relationship after the next. I felt like I was getting f* over left, right and centre. I felt like I couldn’t get a grip onto anything stable as everything I ever relied on was slowly fading away. At this stage I wasn’t sure if it was the fear inside me pushing everyone away or something else. But all I knew was relationships were falling away from me in every direction and the people I was attracting into my life were less than desirable on any given day. The deepest, darkest aspect of myself were being portrayed in front of me.
The fear I had of myself had manifested itself into my reality. The lack of self-worth and value I had on my life had lead me to dark places with dark people. Meeting the darkest aspect of myself and the poison that was slowly trying to take my life.
The toxic thought pattern I had running through me was ruining all aspects of my life. Every thought of hope or flurry of desire snapped away from me before it got the chance to bloom.
I felt like my life was a paradox, cut off at every crossroads. Twisting and turning down the streets of hell. Until I learned to connect with and protect my higher self. I realised we all have the capability of vibrating from a number of different frequencies. When I feel inspired I feel gratitude for life and all the world has to offer, functioning from this a state of peace, abundance and bliss.
I realised such emotions don’t just happen by chance but are cultivated like a well manicured garden. Once I learned to navigate my way through the emotional battlefield I had internally my entire life changed for the better.
When everything comes down to our internal guidance system it depends where our compass is pointing. Am I coming from a place of trust and faith in myself and the universe around me? Or am I coming from a space of fear, confusion and misunderstanding? Asking myself these questions helps me know where I need to regulate my behaviour to adjust myself so I can experience my desires and not my fears. To live from a space of faith in myself and the Universe around me allows me to manifest my reality from a space of calm understanding rather than hazy disillusion.